Peace

What is peace?  I have found that peace is what I have when I am able to let go.  With all that has happened in my 40 years, I could write a book.  I have found, though, that peace is a fabulous thing.  It may only last a minute while I am pouring that first cup of coffee in the morning and the rest of the house is quiet.  It may even happen when I am laying down to go to sleep at night.  There was a kiss once from my husband that put me at peace.  It was right before his surgery in January of 2010.  That was when I gave him to God. Ohhh!  I hate doing that! 

But over the last 2 years, I have learned to let go, let God, and let Him give me peace.  I see him struggle regularly with the strife that Satan throws at him, and yet I see him listening to his gospel music and being at peace.  God is so serene, so strong, so omnipotent!  He can bring me back to "center" so to speak with a prayer and a deep breath or two.  Here's the deal....  you have to let Him. 

That can be harder than you think when you are a control freak like me.  Ouch!  Did I actually say that?  Yep. I did.  I am a control freak. I want to control everything.  I want to control who my daughter's friends are - although most of them I seem to like pretty well.  I want to control my husband's fight with Satan and his pain with his back, etc. I want to control the wave of emotions I feel in a stressful situation.  Somehow, though, none of this will happen in a good way unless I let go and let God handle everything.  Only then will I have the peace I desire.  I can put all my worries, struggles, temptations, negative emotions, troubles in God's strong, merciful, gracious hands and go about my day praising Him for all the good he will allow me to do for him that day.  Whew, what a relief.  Thank you, God, for the peace you bring. I love you!